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Forever Surrendered Youth

by Bedbound By Summer

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1.
Checking In 01:59
Pass the pages Pass the day Do my best to make an origami snake Moving from me, resembling you Patterned and coloured green and blue I’m just checking in I’m sleeping I’m feeling alright I used to be your burden But we were both birds on a wire Did you not ever tire of having me do my best for you Spending your days in my room I’m just checking in [Are you] sleeping? [Are you] feeling alright?
2.
Slow Down 03:35
On the drive home We take the long way round The bed is so cold I wish you would slow down Nevermind on the turntable Close my eyes Embrace new fall I wonder if you left The bruise by accident Or the walls unpainted Youth in artefact In the quiet Why do you talk so loud? In the silence Is your Mother proud? Small talk Between our teeth Distance growing My hands are always cold You never know I wonder if we were Anything more than comfort New skin for the old hurt You just make this worse I wonder if you ever knew I say your name aloud in every room If the walls are painted blue I can’t forget you
3.
A&E&A&ME 02:27
We're bleeding out our vitriol until we're older than old Give your regards to Charlie I'll exist as A&E&A&ME Who'd have thought that bad decisions would mean worse consequences Is this the best you've ever felt Knowing your luck ducked out And the truth is irrelevant There's no use in telling us no Crosswords in the kitchen Ghouls in the backroom The next thing we'll do that matters is die So sit up straight and focus Who'd have thought that bad decisions would mean worse consequences Is this the best you've ever felt Knowing your luck ducked out And now the truth is irrelevant There's no use in telling us no
4.
The rose bush in the garden survived the winter Survived the dry spell Survived your absence I guess we all did I’ve been gathering the things from house 27 years separated out Into what I can live and cannot live without More than that I miss having you around I haven’t felt close to anything since I held your hands and lowered you down Into the cold hard ground Lately I’ve been collecting pieces of your memory And spending too much time in the cemetery Placing flowers on your grave To the left of your parents A new home was made Elizabeth you still fill me with shame If I said your name 27 times Would that bring you back to life?
5.
The sky splits for me and contrails evaporate For a high red moon Saccharine love or blood and hate Drawing lines between the skyline dots A northern star for the southern stain The long grass taken by the estate The big rock visit or the astral plane Through wild waters and hands clasped The tide decides the time we have Put aside the mind to understand That the ghosts that haunt us are weaker than the untimely failure in best laid plans The railroad splits for me and crossroads exacerbate My reluctance to choose Between fields and fanes for a place to lay The stolen lead and the grounded slate All across the great divide and these greater plains Like wildfires we'll take the land And everything that it has Leaving no one left to understand That the ghosts that haunt us are weaker than the untimely failure in best laid plans Scaling walls a heart in half We saw two swans flying and thought of Mark Relive my childhood on the asphalt yard We thought living would be easy but it's sure been hard But tonight, it's alright It'll all look different in the daylight Through wild Winters we'd lose the ampersand The tide decided the life we'd have With no mind left to understand That the ghosts that haunt us are weaker than the untimely failure in best laid plans Like wild horses we'll grace the land And tire until we no longer stand Leaving nothing left to understand That the ghosts that haunt us are weaker than the untimely failure in best laid plans I wanted this I needed this There's a feeling and a reason It's deeper than the river bed And meant more than we'd ever meant We'd rest our legs We'd rest our heads And wish that we'd never met But I wanted this
6.
Live in the spirit world now Can I come over & haunt your house? Sit in your old bedroom where we could once move and let our bodies intertwine Be my spirit girl now I’m tired of always waiting around Just come close, let me hold smoke Let your hands count the time Hours pass by Minute by minute Night by night Outside and in Crawl under my skin Honey Hi, How Are You? The devil has Texas You’ll never know how much it means to us Staring at the sink Watch the water drip Thought I’d be over this by now I guess that was a lie I’m sentimentally attached to everything A drawing of a bike Baby come over & see me tonight The story of an artist I should never be an artist
7.
I've never had a dead friend Some I lost, others I left But none I could ever forget Leave me hanging for a second The love I lost and lust I left My routines repeat again Sweet sweet anxiety You seem to see me knees weak and arms still flailing But would you leave me if I asked? You became a usury A debt that I could bet against me I went in for it anyway A piece of you for all of me A day you'd trade for 20 years My routines repeat again God knows I'm sick of me Sweet sweet anxiety You seem to see me knees weak and arms still flailing But would you leave me if I asked? Sweet sweet adversary Won't you see me, like Bradley on the jetee But would you meet me if I asked
8.
Into You 02:15
Watch the sun roll Through your window Into your bedroom Are your walls still blue? Kiss me soon Hold my hand and feel the bloom (I’ll be home soon/ baby you never knew) I’m into you You know I’m into you Bicycles and dead friends Long walks and sleeping in Instead of spending the afternoon Thinking about you You’re so far away Yet I still feel the space you used to take
9.
New Prayer 02:44
I hope you don't mind me saying that you don't lose the things that you throw away You weigh up your decisions with equal indecisions and call it off for another day Are you itching to leave Or to fix everything You're still in the tunnel But I swear it gets better A confession Her eyes The taste of your lies You've got a second chance at life We spoke for close to an hour and it was coming on midnight You speak through sighs of the uphill fight and wish away the sunrise Are you longing to leave Or to fix everything You're still in the tunnel But I swear it gets better A confession Her eyes The taste of your lies You've got a second chance at life So call time on your despair And say a new prayer
10.
Stay 04:29
Have I told you enough lately that you’re everything to me? After 2 weeks in the same bed I’m feeling like myself again I always preferred the mornings but I don’t mind leaving them behind There’s a thorn in my side I’m a girl and you’re a boy tonight The halos around your eyes flicker and fade Put your glasses on Put the heartache away Please stay It’s harder to find the words/ it’s only getting worse I don’t care how much this hurts Please stay You always feel the cold But stand outside so I’m not alone I’m not sure if you ever noticed That you grind your teeth when you feel nervous So come Relax a while Lay your head on my chest I’ll try not to die without you by my side Trace words in to my skin In circular motion I’ve never been Good at guessing

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Album #11. Recorded sporadically Jan - Jun '20 on 8 track.

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released July 2, 2020

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Bedbound By Summer Boston, UK

2013 - 2023

Kane Storr
Liam James Marsh

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